Stress.

I am really disappointed with my final exam.

Although I got all A for the coursework of all the subjects.

I knew if I work harder on it, sure I will get A for every subjects very easily.

But unfortunately, I knew that I'm not hardworking enough.

No other excuses. Just not hardworking enough.

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Although I just need to take 5 subjects for my second semester but I don't know why I'm feeling more stress compared to my first semester.

I cried before my programming written test.

I cried when I was rushing my assignment.

The very first time I almost didn't sleep for two days to rush my assignment.

Everything just stress me out.

I don't know why I become like that.

Maybe, I just don't want to disappoint my parent..my family.

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Today my dad brought us to dinner.

Really having a very long time I didn't have my dinner with my family.

My mom mentioned about the scholarship again.

She asked me to put more effort on my study so that I can get the scholarship for my advanced diploma.

Don't know why suddenly I feel so stress.

Maybe I scared I can't reach what she expected.

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Sometimes I did very envy my friends who got 10 or 11As in the SPM.

And I quite regret that I didn't work hard for my SPM.

My dad and mom were working hard to pay for my college tuition fees.

Sometimes I regret that I didn't work hard to get good results in SPM.

If I got the good results, now I can apply scholarship and my mom and dad don't need to suffer so much about me.

So I know I should work more hard to get the scholarship for advanced diploma.

At least my parent don't need to suffer so much about me.

I knew that I "need" to get good results but not " want".

I just don't want to disappoint my parent.

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Just done my Programming, Information System, English and Account paper.

Now just left my Statistic paper need to be done.

The last paper that I need to work hard for this semester.

At least I wish my Statistic can get an A.

Then I will start to work for my whole sem break. maybe? =/